What a great step…”Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God as understood God, praying only for knowledge of God’s will for us and the power to carry that out.” Wow what a mouth full. What I took away from this step was that as I prayed and meditated to a God of my own understanding that I would be hit with “God Shots” of knowledge, which actually has happened to me on more than one occasion. As God has guided me through these flowing waters of recovery I have made a spiritual connection with my higher power, which I refer to as, “Papa.” I’ve learned to listen to my heart and follow my instincts which He has guided me with. It’s at those times I have had some real awareness and wisdom shoot my way. My Papa is loving, supportive, understanding and doesn’t show me the answers I need right away, sometimes I have to look for the signs a little harder as He is directing me. My hope is that all who look for His ways hear Him as I have and enjoy the path of serenity I have been so fortunate to walk.
You know another year has gone by and all I could think of was what I was happiest about. What truly made me happy? What had I learned from the last twelve months? Believe it or not I was able to put together a little list of things that made me happy. Happiness is a quiet evening with the one I love relaxing while I’m reading a good book. Happiness is knowing that I have nothing to fear because I haven’t lied and need to watch over my back. Happiness is having friends that understand me and support my views without judgment. Happiness is that I can go out on the town and know how act in a crowd with respect. Most importantly happiness for me knows that I have a higher power that watches out over me and guides me on a daily basis. All these little gifts are just a glimmer into a world that I come to understand is where I belong, far away from the trials of addiction. Thank you Papa for all your love and support.