Step Eleven…God’s Will

What a great step…”Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God as understood God, praying only for knowledge of God’s will for us and the power to carry that out.” Wow what a mouth full. What I took away from this step was that as I prayed and meditated to a God of my own understanding that I would be hit with “God Shots” of knowledge, which actually has happened to me on more than one occasion. As God has guided me through these flowing waters of recovery I have made a spiritual connection with my higher power, which I refer to as, “Papa.” I’ve learned to listen to my heart and follow my instincts which He has guided me with. It’s at those times I have had some real awareness and wisdom shoot my way. My Papa is loving, supportive, understanding and doesn’t show me the answers I need right away, sometimes I have to look for the signs a little harder as He is directing me. My hope is that all who look for His ways hear Him as I have and enjoy the path of serenity I have been so fortunate to walk.

 

8 thoughts on “Step Eleven…God’s Will

  1. After 15 months I am finally formally on my 2nd step. I think I have been doing 1-2-3 sporadically in my daily living but formally with my sponsor we are just now on step two. He told me to pray/meditate every morning for my higher power to “reveal him/her/itself to me”.

    Well this seems a lot like step 11 to me;

    “Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God as understood God, praying only for knowledge of God’s will for us and the power to carry that out.”

    Well at least the part about conscious contact, so I as HP to reveal him/her/itself to me and I keep an eye out for those revelations as we have so fondly come to call “God shots”. Funny thing is since I have started this routine I am open to seeing the “God shots” more and more.

    I have a long way to go for 11, but I am right where I need to be today.

  2. This is an important area for me. I need to be connected to my higher power to be away from the symptoms of my addiction. Without a connection of a higher power, I really have no chance.

    My sponsor says the program is a three legged stool. The first leg is the physical part of this disease. The second leg is the mental part. This is my feelings, emotions, daydreams, and other stuff going on in my head. The third leg is the spiritual. That is my connection with God.

    Where I am today is I am managing pretty well with the first two. However, if I don’t connect with my higher power, then that leg is shorter and my recovery falls over.

    Thanks for the reminder to keep connected to my higher power so my three legged stool stays even.

  3. I am not on Step 11 yet, but I sure know what this step is about. I pray every day for knowledge of God’s will for me and the power to carry it out. I know today that all I need to worry about is my part; my Higher Power will take care of the outcomes. Before coming into recovery I worried about everything, tried to control everything, every outcome, and everybody. It was exhausting. Today it is freeing to know that I have no control. What a relief. Today all I need to do is work my program and do what I need to do on a daily basis as best as I can. As long as I continue to do the next right thing and work as hard as I can in all my endeavors, my Higher Power will take care of me. Since I have been working my program this way, He has not let me down yet, and for that I am grateful.

  4. God’s Will: What is God’s Will? I have no idea. The good news is that today, I don’t need to know. All I need to know is that God will take care of me as long as I do what I am supposed to do. He has not let me down yet. In the past I would spend hours, days, weeks, months worrying about what was to come, what happened, or what is. I would try to control the outcome of every situation, control how people should feel about things and how people should feel about me, and control how people should behave. Most of the time I did not get the result that I wanted and I was frustrated and disappointed which always led me to feel depressed and rejected and fed my feelings of powerless and unmanageability. All of that is a thing of the past because I don’t need to worry about any of it anymore. All I need to do is take care of myself, take care of my responsibilities, and do the legwork that I need to do on a daily basis to keep myself sober, to keep my life moving along and God will take care of the rest. Whatever is supposed to happen will happen…As long as I do the work and have trust in God – beautiful!

  5. What is God’s Will? I have no idea. All I know is that I can turn my will over to God every day. I can let my Higher Power take care of me and let His will not mine be done. That does not mean that I just sit back and do nothing. I still need to do my part. I still have a lot to do. I need to do the footwork. I need to do my work to move my life along. What I cannot do is control the outcome. That is where my Higher Power comes in. The outcome of my work is God’s will. And whatever He wants to happen will happen. So far as long as I do what I am supposed to do, my Higher Power has not let me down. So I will continue to turn my will over every day through the use of the 3rd step prayer. It has not let me down yet.

  6. Today is a good example of me trying to improve my conscience contact with God and carrying out his will for me. I had to make my amends to my brother. I felt like Daniel being thrown into the Lion’s den. And like Daniel I came out unscathed because I had my Higher Power to protect me. I prayed to turn everything over to Him and just let whatever was supposed to happen, to happen. And everything went well. Much better than I had been projecting for the past two weeks. A lesson to me.

  7. “Trying to control the outcome”. This is at the crux of my unhappiness with my life. I worry so much about the outcomes of real or imagined problems, that I get lost in working out complicated, manipulative and covert schemes to try to make things turn out the way I want. This is in spite of the fact that I have been unsuccessfully trying to accomplish this for the past 40 yrs.

    The effort expended in controlling others, in controlling the world is exhausting, frustrating and useless. How much simpler to trust in my Higher Power, and let Him guide me through the maze. He’s better at it than I, and it’s much easier on the nerves. Surrendering to what is and letting God decide how what is will affect me, and trusting in his love for me to keep me safe – a much more satisfying and honest approach to life’s problems. And a sign of respect for others, allowing them to have their own reactions to what is rather than trying to influence or control them.

    The easy, honest way is also the best way.

  8. Turn it over to God. That was difficult in the beginning of my recovery but now today as I am firmly in the maintenance steps it has become easier. I have learned that God is with me everyday. He shows himself to me at the most opportune times when I don’t expect it. I get God shots almost everyday and when they come I am filled with a sense of peacefulness and also confirmation that I am alive and living in recovery. My life is so vastly different today yet I am so comfortable with who I am and when I look back at my life in addiction I wonder who that person was. I still know all that I have done but the pain and shame are gone and each day life gets better because of God and all he does for me. Heck look at what I was able to do without him in my life and that was such a disaster and now with him the possibilities are endless. Thank you father I say it thousands of times a day and it never seems enough but thank you thank you thank you

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