Step 5…The Truth

“Each step of the program is a leap of faith” so it says in our big book. So true are these words. First we had to write down our moral inventory in step four, then we take another leap of faith and tell someone else about our wrongs while God listens in. Step five helps us relieve ourselves of our secrets and come into the light of God. We have unburdened ourselves of our wrong doings and finally become free from our isolation, our hiding out. We’ve outted ourselves. This proved to be a very powerful step for me. I no longer was hiding from the world. I had taken another leap of faith and brought God into my inner sanctum. I was allowing God’s will to work His magic on my now unburdened life. Not only did the fifth step acknowledge my wrong doings it also sheds light on the positive aspects of my character as well. Thus creating a balance in my world. I found out that doing my fifth step while not only being very rewarding also showed me my shortcomings as noted in step six. I really enjoyed the cleansed feeling after doing my fifth step and thank my sponsor for continuing to show me the path of sobriety. This step was a turning point in my recovery. I began the next day invigorated for life and a real sense of peace came over me. It was as if I was reborn anew, fresh to tackle life on life’s terms. It’s like I was taking back my life, but from a new beginning. A beginning with respect, honor and joy leading my day.

4 thoughts on “Step 5…The Truth

  1. I am currently working Step 4. I have just started my list of secrets and things of which I am ashamed and I wonder if I will have enough paper. I don’t know where to begin so I am begin with the present and working backwards which is not the way that I usually approach a step. But maybe that is good since I need to do things differently. I CANNOT WAIT to get to Step 5 when I can unburden myself of these things and move on. I am praying that Step 5 will help me to grow like I need to grow. But I know that Step 5 will only give me what I give it. And I know that the key to keeping the beauty of Step 5 is going to be NO MORE SECRETS! EEK. Can I do that? YES. Will I do that – A – HA! That is the question. WILL – ING – NESS. I pray for willingness to keep me going on my Step 4 to get me to Step 5 and to keep me honest to keep Step 5 Alive. Maybe that will be my motto for a while once I am done Step 5 – Keep Step 5 Alive! We’ll see. I am not there yet. But I am looking forward to it.

  2. The Truth – WOW – Looks like no one wants to talk about the truth. The Truth is I don’t want to post tonight. I am tired and I just want to go to bed. I don’t feel like it but I know that I need to do it. I have not been to a meeting since Sunday (an SAA meeting that is.) And I will not be at another until for 2 days. So this is good. I need to do what I can on a daily basis. Right now I have a lot going on and I am feeling overwhelmed. That is not good for me. I need to take some deep breaths and stick with my basics and just take things one step at a time. I need to get to bed at a reasonable hour – like before midnight – so posting this at 1 am is not getting me off to a good start, but it is better than 3 or 4 which is what I sometimes do when I am really overwhelmed. I have a busy weekend but I can manage it if I pray about it, stay focused and take care of myself. I have dinner Sunday with a brother in the program and then the meeting and that will be a good way to end the weekend. I will look forward to that and that will help me focus on staying sober and using the weekend leading up to that time in a healthy way. And that’s the truth.

  3. Step 5 appeared like a step UP HIGH ON THE MOUNTAIN TOP. My thoughts were, Am I going to get there? It seems so far away…. Then one day, I got there. When I was disclosing all my dark secrets to my sponsor, he sat their quietly and serene. When it was all over, I looked at him and said “I don’t feel anything different”. He explained that he had the same experience. He told me to reflect on the emotional roller coaster I had experienced in Step 4. If I was looking for a feeling, I had already processed a LOAD of them in Step 4. Step 5 states “Admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.” I admitted the exact nature of my wrongs to myself, to my sponsor, and I believe that my Higher Power was seating right there in the middle.

  4. Step 5 I am not there yet I am still working on step 4. I know I have a ways to go in step 4 as I have to be so thorough and honest. I do t want to leave out one resentment because I know I have to,purge my soul. I have already been doing this in my recovery. I spoke with my kids last night and for the first time I was honest and open about my addiction. I wasn’t afraid going to talk to them. I knew in my heart they would understand and they did. I felt God with me as I spoke to them and it was all ok. They love me they always have and they always will. I will complete step 4 soon and it will be done thoroughly and I will embrace step 5 like I have my entire recovery. Thank you father for your strength and guidance every day I am alive and living and recovering

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