My biggest fear was being alone. In my active addiction, I made my fears come true. Through my acting out and my addictive behaviors, I pushed people away and isolated and in the end I was alone. If I was not alone actually isolating, I was alone surrounded by people because no one really knew who I was anymore. Today I am not alone. Even when I am by myself, I am not alone; I have my Higher Power by my side. Today as a result of working this program I am not afraid anymore. I am grateful for this gift that I have been given from my Higher Power and my sponsor and from many others in the fellowship who have been there for me over my journey so far. Without them I don’t know where I would be right now. But what I do know is what they knew: that in this program, “you have to give it away to keep it.” They had to give it to me so that they could keep it and I need to pass it on so that I can keep it. I need to give back what was so freely given to me. Some newcomers wonder why I might do it and some feel that they might be a bother, however, they have no idea how much they are helping me. They are probably helping me more than I am helping them. They are helping me stay sober one more day. When I work with a newcomer I ask for God’s assistance and ask Him to work through me and allow me to provide whatever He feels I need to provide. I am there to listen and to carry the message of the fellowship and to help another addict. In the end, if two addicts stay sober one more day, then we are successful and that is a miracle and for that I am grateful and for that I will continue to work with others as much as I can.